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God is Good
I love the feeling of being comfortable enough with a person to talk to them about anything and for them to feel comfortable enough with you to call you out on things that you’re not doing right in your life, not in the way to be rude but to try to help you out. I was having a conversation with my friend Ben tonight and he started to call me out on things that I knew I needed to change but was afraid to admit it.
For those of you that don’t know me I am a arrogant sarcastic asshole majority of the time. I play it off as though I’m trying to be that way and I enjoy it. But in all actuality it kills me, I hate the fact I’m always so angry and bitter toward people. I hate that instead of just being funny I take it to far and hurt people with my words constantly.
During the conversation with Ben tonight I realized that God made me the way he did for a reason, he made my personality be the type to challenge people and beliefs and what not. But not to do it the way I have been. I’ve come to the realization that I need to give it all up to God. I can’t make the changes in my life that are necessary on my own, I need God to help me through it.
Coming to this realization is huge for me and has me stoked for the future and what God has planned. I sit back and realized how blessed I am right now and the fact that I have done nothing to deserve all of this. I don’t read my Bible, I don’t pray as much as I should, I don’t completely devote my life to the one and only Savior. I’m so stoked to see what God can do through me when I’m actually following him the way I should be, because I realized it has nothing to do with me and that’s what I have been making it into. Nothing good I do is a result of me, its God and all the Glory needs to go to him.
