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Doing what you love.
Its been awhile since I’ve updated this thing, just been really busy and when I do have free time just have been feeling very unmotivated I guess you could say.
I recently started working at officemax, as far as jobs go its one of the best jobs I’ve had. Work with good people, get paid well, work a lot of hours and its a pretty easy job. I just feel like im not doing what I am supposed to be doing.
I am doing an internship with a local youth group, helping get the new stuff started up and interning as the outreach director. Since I have been doing this its made me realize this is what Im called to do. Whether its an outreach director or something else involved in ministry, helping people, and serving God.
I am also struggling with wanting to make my parents happy, I know all my father wants is for me to get a college education. I understand why he wants that, but when the choice is work and school, or work and internship I have to choose internship because I am feeling a call from my heavenly father to do so. It makes things so tough on me however, I know my dad loves me and that he doesn’t think lower of me, but when I know he wants me to be in school and im not its kind of hard to not feel like a disappointment to him.
The ideal situation I could think of would be to get a job in ministry, and do school on the side. Make both of my fathers happy. At this point in my life, not even being 21 I don’t think it would be realistic to think a church would hire me as an outreach director but hey a boy can dream right?
